I had a surprisingly nice Thanksgiving. I didn't break down at all yesterday. I did a bit today. I woke up at 8am.. started prepping things I'd forgotten.. got the turkey ready.. watched the parade.. averted a near crisis when I ran out of butter but found the grocery store about a block down the road was open till 3pm. Dropped some pie off at work, finished my cooking. My co-worker (prolly my best friend in this state) told me he was gonna come by but he wasn't sure when. He was gonna bring his boyfriend and our mutual friend over...  I wasn't 100% sure they were coming but they all did. I went to pick up our friend as he wanted to come hang out early. I had fun showing him how to make certain things.... he enjoyed trying all the new foods. He'd never had sweet potato casserole!! He offered to go straight if I promised to marry him and make it for him. :D That's a nice feeling. I made just about everything mom would have had, cept I forgot the relish tray... and no green beans. Other than that, it was perfect. My turkey was tasty (a tiny bit overcooked by not very noticeable).. I made some really good gravy (tho none of them would eat the giblet gravy!) I thought the 14 pound turkey was tiny, they thought it was HUGE. We played Rock Band till around 10pm.

Two of them came back to visit today (and play more Rock Band)... and one said it was the best Thanksgiving he'd ever had.... And I thought it was the best I'd had in a few years.. also thought how sad it must be if he's never had the type of thanksgivings I had when Mom was alive.

Anywho.. it was a nice day, I managed to keep the apartment cleaned up as I cooked. No big messy to clean up afterward. Mom would have been exceedingly proud. In fact, I'm pretty sure I heard her say she was when I looked around the kitchen / living room after everyone left. At least.. in my head I heard it.

Hope you all had a nice day.... full of happiness and warmth.

Wed. I woke up with a small tickle in my throat, but I attributed it to the change in weather (gone from 40 degree highs to 70 degrees) and my having to be @ work @ 7am instead of 9am 2 days in a row. Wed also happened to be our free Flu shot @ work. I ignored the tickle and had my shot about 10am. By 1pm my tickle developed a cough... and my chest was hurting. When I left work at 6:30pm, I dropped by the drug store, and decided to buy a buttload of cold/flu medicine.... mucinex, theraflu, benedril, zinc, cough drops, alleve, coricidin AND a thermometer... $50 bucks worth of cold/flu medicine. wtf. By the time I got home I was running a temp of 101.8... 10 min. later it spiked at 102.9. Been sucking down medicine every few hours since. Still can't seem to beat it. I get it down to 98.9.. and 3 hours late its at 100.2.. so on and so forth. My voice is gone.. my tickle is not a low burn. My cough is producing brownish/greyish nastiness every so often. My nose isn't very stuffy but it burns. Yesterday I slept... till 9pm.. yes.. 9pm. I did wake up for 20 min. a few times, only to pass back out, sprawled in my bed. Missed the last 2 days of work.. hoping I can get back on Monday.

In short... being sick sucks.

Hope you all have a nice weekend.

I know it's expected I'd be home sick...  but this caught me by surprise. A friend of mine IM'd me just a few minutes ago. He was bored and was just making small talk, made me feel better about a situation I'm having with a mutual friend of ours. I come to find out he's out to dinner with his mom and dad and some of their friends. It hit me like a brick in the head. I told him how nice that must be and how I was jealous... and I was being honest.. I started to cry a bit. 'Cause I couldn't remember the last time I had a meal with my mom and dad both.. I have flashes of memories at campfires, or at a thanksgiving meal. But to just sit down, with your parents, and have a full meal... talking to each other. How freaking nice must that be? And how many people take it for granted? Way too many would be my guess.

I envy you all, who are able to sit down and share time with loved ones. I truly do.