Month: June 2010

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    Burn Baby Burn? 

    St. Louis Pride and Punishment…. ?

     

    So I inadvertently did something very stupid. But I’ll get to that in a moment.

    I went to the Pride Parade in St. Louis with my friend (he is gay) from work and all the friends I’ve met via him. They all happen to be gay, go figure! We’ve been talking about a trip to St. Louis for a few months, as he’s originally from there. So he and his friends invited me to Pride.We went to see the Archers, of course.There was a random wedding party at the base, they were quite lovely. The water is VERY high. People are supposed to be able to get to the Helipad for tours. And I was… pale.

    We had a blast, my friends here are awesome. We went to Pasta House Company for dinner, I saw the arch, went up in it (however it took waaaaaayyyyyy too long.. got there at 7, not able to go up till 8:40 and wasn’t able to get down till 10pm… scary, huh?) Had fun regardless. My friend Jeremy made a pretty dress out of his bed sheet (he was next door, I shared a room with my coworker friend and his boyfriend). I thought Jeremy had a pretty bow. Also Jeremy’s man, whose name also happens to be Jeremy, totally looks better in my outfit than I do.

     

    The next day was Pride (Sunday) so we grabbed breakfast at Courtesy Diner, some hole in the wall place with great food… and headed to some park near the main
    street where the Parade would be.

     

    I figured we’d get very close, however it was about a 20 min walk (felt so much longer, Sunday was HORRIBLY hot and humid down there). I was miserable and my hair was dripping wet. So I put it up in a bun with my scrunchy to let it dry a bit. Now mind you, I’d only put sunblock on my face and arms (pre-sweating) We thought we’d be there for an hour or so max. Ended up being 3 + hours. There were a ton of beautiful and interesting people there and some very cool sites to see.

     

    I had a lot of fun, people were awesome… found a tattoo I love, I think I want something similar. Can one have more than 1 phoenix tattoo?

    I lost my cellphone, fell out of my purse, however a nice person turned it in to the security, immediately and I got it back. Gave them my favorite set of beeds I collected from the Parade. To celebrate my found phone, I had a coconut drink, carved to look like a monkey.

    I also met a nice lady with a pretty snake while I waited for afore mentioned monkey drink.

    After the 100000 mile walk back to the car I looked pretty miserable.

      

    Finally we made it to Imo’s (pronounced emo’s apparently… no the pizza’s were not covered in black olives and they did not cut themselves). I was thanking the Creator left and right for the Air Conditioning and Ice Water tho. The red was really setting in but I was cooler from being inside.

    On the way home, we saw some neat storms around us but never ON us. 

     

    I had to go to Urgent Care on Tuesday, the burn had progressed so badly I had blisters on my shoulders… not just a few but well over 100, that were tiny and fewer on Monday but by Tuesday they expanded  and were pushing together. Doctor gave me Prednizone, Hydrocodone &  Atarax. I popped a few (just 3 of the many) of the blisters yesterday and tonight (I know it’s bad but they were gonna pop while I slept, and I was able to open them cleanly and clean the area properly.. also was unable to move my arm till after they were opened). Tonight I’m very drugged and very happy… and I actually have my hair down for the 1st time since.. Sunday.

     

     

    That’s it … as I’ve fallen asleep maybe 12 times trying to post this.  The last pics were done with my new web cam.. so clear (but smaller). 

     

    Hope you’re well and remember.. sunblock.

  • And In The End I’ll See You There

    Sunday the 27th is the anniversary of losing my mom

    Monday the 28th is the birthday of an online friend who is dying of cancer, he’ll be 26.

    Friday the 19th he was told he had approximately a week to live. He honestly didn’t believe he would make his birthday. I have a feeling he will. He has no family… he’s in a hospice care place, stays on the computer as much as they’ll let him. He’s so scared, it breaks my heart. While it’s sad for someone so young to die, what hurts me most is how scared he is. I told him there’s nothing to be scared of. And tried to explain how my mom has never left me, same as my dad. I’m not a super religious person, so I am just going on things I’ve personally come to believe. I hope he believes me. 

    Selfish me is sorta envious he has a chance to see my mom soon. 

    Every night for three long weeks,
    She’d roam the hallways half asleep,
    And as the footsteps fade away,
    In my mind, I could swear, I could swear, I heard her say:
    Don’t wait for me, you’ve got a lot to do, you’ve got a lot to be,
    And in the end maybe, I’ll see you there.

  • Loss

    My friend from NC, lost her 13 year old boy on Wed. He got in trouble at school, something silly minor. He never gets in trouble so it was a big deal for the family. There is also talk about kids picking on him. After arguing with his mom and being grounded, he ran outside to the garage, and left a note… then hung himself. The Boy was her only child. I am unsure how she will survive, but I just saw an email she sent a friend, and she seems to following the motions. I always admired her strength. I feel she’ll make it thru after seeing the email.

    If nothing else, let this serve as a few reminders. Love those around you , with all your heart. Also, if you have kids… or know people with kids… talk about bullies. Talk about how it can impact the people they’re picking on. Also talk about how important they are, and if they are bullied what to do. Let them know how much they mean to you.

    This all struck very closely. A few weeks ago, a kid snapped on the bus. He started punching my nephew , unprovoked. There were witnesses and video of the incident. He punched him in the face 6 times. This kid was much older and a lot bigger than my nephew, and my nephews braces shredded the inside of his mouth. I wanted to kill this kid, for hurting my lil nephew, for potentially taking away his innocence… for scaring him… for making him feel anything less than the most important and most loved child in the world. I talked to him last night, and let him know how much he’s loved and how I hope the actions of one person will never change the loving, gentle person he is.

    Please, love those around you. And make sure your friends do the same.