September 2, 2009
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Home for now….
I will be moving to IL on Friday, barring anything major happening. I was initially excited about this but … I wish I could just .. stay home and .. be. Be what? I dunno.. just be. I’m dreading the work it takes to move, my new work up there (I feel so under qualified some days, like they’ll realize I’m a fake or something). And.. the emotional battle leaving my home of 33 years is tearing me apart. I will be alone there… with little to no support system. If I lock my keys in my car? I have to pay for a locksmith.. no brother to come fix it. No random visits by my sister in law or nephew. No “hey, wanna come over to dinner” at the last minute from my sis in law .. and me being in pajama’s and it being ok to say “sure!” and go over in said jammies. Heck, no last minute dinner invites period. No random hugs from my nephew, or lil surprises he’d leave on my doorstep. I used to think I didn’t have much here to hold me, but as I see what I’m going to, I realize how very much I had, even without my mom .. or dad. I’m leaving so much for so little. I just pray it grows to be more. I’m giving it a year in hopes of building some financial padding and maybe falling in love with the place… if it goes badly, I can come home right? Just put away enough for a rental truck to move back.. easy cheesy, right?…. ….. …… right?………………right?
I had a blast at Blizzcon, but had even more fun exploring Anaheim, seeing new places.. and when I was up north, walking around Napa Valley. I ate the most amazing food. I’ll tell you about some of the places at another time, and post some pictures. I gotta get back to packing.
Comments (5)
You know, I am about to embark back to Wyoming. Need a room mate? hehe… sort of serious though.
@Fleener - Locked into a 1 BR apt for the next year >< ($415/mo).. but if
all goes well with the move, I’ll have a couch you can bum!
The only good thing about distance? Not getting shanghied to load/unload a truck ^^
I temporarily escaped my home twice…. I live in Maryland. I moved to Southern Georgia for college and moved back 3 years later. In 2002 I moved to Charlotte and was back 11 months later. I know the time is coming soon when I will move again, this time with my “new” family. But yes, you can move back. Just remember to move “to” something, and not “away from” something you don’t want to deal with and you’ll do fine. i think you are doing that.